(Minghui.org) I am a 25-year-old practitioner. My mother attained the Fa when I was very young. However, she didn't force me to do anything, so I didn't read all of Zhuan Falun even once before I went to high school.
When I was a freshman in high school, I read the entire book of Zhuan Falun for the first time. At that time I was stuck--I hated my father with a passion and was in anguish due to sentimentality. I read:
“Once a person wants to take up cultivation, once that idea comes out it shines like gold, and it shakes the Ten-Directional World.”
“And since they’re in this delusion it’s the most trying. They give them this body to suffer with.”
“Nothing but cultivation can make you feel great, be free of sickness, and bring you true liberation!” (“The Second Talk,” Zhuan Falun)
At that time I had strong human thoughts: “Wow, I'm in such despair now. If I cultivate there won't be any of that, so then I should cultivate. When I want to take up cultivation, is this notion going to 'shine like gold?'” Although my thoughts weren't pure, Master purified my body. I had symptoms of diarrhea, but afterwards I felt comfortable and relaxed beyond belief.
The cultivation path is not smooth. In Zhuan Falun Master said:
“Why do you run into these problems? It’s all caused by your own karmic debts. We’ve already decreased it by countless portions for you, and there’s only a little bit left, which is distributed across different levels so that you can improve your character. The tribulations are set up to temper your mind and get rid of your different attachments. They’re your own tribulations, and we use them to improve your character. You should be able to overcome all of them.” (“The Fourth Talk” in Zhuan Falun)
When I read this paragraph of Fa back then, I didn't understand. There were many xinxing tests I didn't pass, and I didn't look inward when I encountered conflicts. Slowly I stopped reading the Fa, and everyday people's thinking returned. I felt that there wasn't much difference whether I cultivated or not.
My father used to have a very bad temper before he started to cultivate. He always spanked me for small things. For example, I didn't clean the vegetables well enough before cooking them, or I talked back to him. When I was in middle school, one time he beat me so hard I couldn't move. That frightened me and left an emotional scar. I was afraid of being alone with him.
After that I studied very hard to get into college so I could leave home and my father. Later my father attained the Fa and knew how to improve his xinxing. He never beat me again.
I went to a college far away. While I was away at college, I did not study the Fa, and I was polluted by the bad things in society. But when I was going to do something bad, the words from Zhuan Falun would come to mind. So sometimes I followed Master's words and didn't do them.
A year after I graduated from college, I couldn't stand the stress of the big city and went to a small town to take a break. I started to think about the meaning of life.
I started to read Zhuan Falun again, and I realized that the purpose of being human is to return to one's original, true self and that only cultivation can improve a life's realm.
Before long, I decided to return home, and I started to cultivate again. Dafa has changed me, and I have become an open-minded person who can listen to others' opinions.
Dafa has manifested many miracles in my home. One year the Udumbara flowers blossomed at my home, and they were helpful when my mother asked people to quit the Communist Party and its affiliated organizations.
This is how I attained the Fa and came back to cultivation. I hope it can be helpful to those who are still hesitating at the door of cultivation.
The Fa that we have been awaiting for many lives has come to the human world. Please don't miss this precious opportunity! This might be the only chance for us to reach consummation! Treasure it!
