(Minghui.org) I have practiced Falun Dafa for many years and have been doing truth-clarification work. I believed that I was doing well.
However, I became disinterested in cultivation and daily life. All tasks and activities seemed like drinking tasteless water. At first, I thought it was a reflection of my cultivation state. Then, I barely escaped from trouble several times while distributing Falun Dafa informational materials. I sensed that something was wrong.
I calmed down and looked inward when I meditated one night. I found that my attachment to time was causing the problems.
Thinking back, I have been yearning for the persecution to end since its onset on July 20, 1999. After hearing all sorts of prophecies, I had these thoughts especially strongly right before the 19th National Congress of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). However, the government did not become better as I had anticipated. I felt at a loss, wondering when this would all end. I was in despair.
After finding this attachment, my mind immediately became much clearer. I suddenly found my direction again and was energetic.
Horrifying Dream
I fell asleep after sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight and dreamed vividly.
In the dream, we practitioners and some people who have learned the truth about Falun Dafa were located at a very high place. We were in a large, Ark-like ship. We could see a large area and large metropolises on the ground below. It was like looking down from an airplane. Houses looked like small matchboxes.
A gloomy sentiment was in the air. Deep down, we all felt that the “big elimination” was coming. We all stared at the ground nervously. It was extremely quiet. The air was still, as though war was about to break out at any moment.
Suddenly, a lightning bolt hit a high mountain far away, and deafening thunder broke the quiet. A large storm followed, and a deluge flooded the ground. The water did not come from the sea, nor did it come from rain. It did not emerge from the earth. The water appeared to seep in from another dimension and rose to hundreds of meters, coming from all directions.
All the cities were submerged and destroyed in seconds. The water swallowed the high mountains. Some hills were crushed by its huge waves all at once. A strong air current sucked cars and other large objects high into the sky like dust. I have not seen such terrible scenes even in movies.
My son was scared; he leaned his head on my leg and did not dare to look. Everyone was shocked by what they saw and felt terrible. We felt sorrow and pain that so many people had been eliminated. We practitioners regretted and blamed ourselves for not having been more diligent in saving people.
My dream then ended. My mind was agitated and unsettled. I was unable to calm down and go back to sleep.
Awakening
I realized that my hoping the persecution would end soon was terrible and selfish. It was a sinful thought that disregarded so many people. Seeing countless lives destroyed, those who survived could not be happy. All they had was endless pain and sorrow. Seeing the place where one used to live and practice cultivation destroyed, we regretted painfully that we had not done our best to save people.
A practitioner said in his experience sharing article, “If someone asks me if I want it to end now, I think I would say no. Every day there are about 100,000 people quitting the CCP and its affiliated organizations. That rate equals about 36 million people in a year. If Fa-rectification ends now, they will all lose their chance of being saved.
The persecution worsened last year. Even though more than a thousand practitioners were sentenced to prison last year and continue to suffer, 36 million people were saved in exchange. How could one make the choice to end this phase of history?
Indeed, if someone asks me if I want the persecution to end right now, I would also say no. I wish to follow Teacher's arrangement and continue our efforts to save people.
I hope that all practitioners will not pay much attention to the ups and downs of society. Practitioners should work as hard as they did when the persecution first started and completely focus on doing the three things well. We need to do our best to save people.
