(Minghui.org) Clarifying the truth and exposing the persecution of Falun Gong practitioners is also part of one's cultivation. At the beginning I was scared to talk about my faith, but eventually I began to relax, even when I faced abuse. I used to care a lot as to how many phone calls I made. Then, I realized that even if one person accepted the truth and quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), it was worth my effort. Over time, I improved a lot.
When I started to clarify the truth over the phone, I felt under great pressure. When I looked inside, I found that I held the attachment to fear. I worried that my phone was monitored and that I would be arrested. Was this the real me worrying? – I doubt it.
I am a Falun Dafa practitioner, what I do is the most righteous thing in the world, I have no reason to be afraid. It was not me!
I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate everything that was interfering with me. I memorized Lunyu. My husband and I sent forth righteous thoughts together to eliminate all evil elements and interference from other dimensions and asked Master for help. After we eliminated all interference, we found improvement within us. Within two hours we helped more than 20 people quit the CCP and its youth organizations.
Sometimes, only a few people would listen to us and accept the truth about Dafa. But this was alright, as we always learned and continuously improved.
At the beginning of this year, when I went out to make phone calls to talk about Dafa, I was tracked twice, so I started to worry again and could not help many people to quit the CCP.
We looked inward and realized that we had not diligently studied Master's teachings.
Master said,
“The old forces don't dare to oppose our clarifying the truth or saving sentient beings. What's key is to not let them take advantage of the gaps in your state of mind when you do things.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 20002 Fa Conference in Boston” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference II)
We were fulfilling our vow and were not just involved in a human task. Additionally, Master told us that it was not truly humans that launched the persecution, it was the old forces. If we did not study the Fa well, our righteous thoughts were not powerful, and thus we were unable to eliminate the old forces and evil substances.
I realized that what was happening was the same as how we treat illness. The root of the illness is actually karma. The symptoms are a mirror of what was ailing us. Master said, “When disciples have ample righteous thoughts, Master has the power to turn back the tide.” (“The Master-Disciple Bond” from Hong Yin Volume II)
Gradually, my attachment to fear was weakening.
When the summer is approaching, the heat worsens. During July and August, we could not stay in the car unless we turned on the air conditioner. However, to lower the cost of gasoline, I kept the windows open at times.
Once, we were parked along a riverbank. Everything went well at the beginning. Within less than 10 minutes, four people quit the CCP. Because it was getting hot in the car, my husband opened the window. Mosquitoes flew in and bit us. I could not stand it and handed the phone to my husband and started to scratch.
More and more mosquitoes flew into the car, which distracted me from making phone calls. Suddenly I realized that the old forces sent the mosquitoes to prevent me from clarifying the truth. I started to send forth righteous thoughts. I decided that no matter how badly I was bitten, I would only concentrate on clarifying the truth and persuading people to quit the CCP. It was amazing, because after I had that thought, the mosquitoes were gone and I no longer itched. People on the other end of the phone started to listen to me.
On another occasion, when I tried to meet my husband at a certain location, I couldn't find him. It turned out that I had misunderstood him and he was actually waiting further down the road. We argued for over half an hour. Then I realized that something was wrong. We are Falun Dafa practitioners; nothing happens accidentally. What was the point even if I won the argument? The difference between a practitioner and a non-practitioner is that practitioners need to look inwards.
Master said,
As a cultivator One always looks for one’s own faults ’Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most effectively There’s no way to skip ordeals, big or small [During a conflict, if you can remember:] “He’s right, And I’m wrong,” What’s to dispute? (“Who's Right, Who's Wrong” from Hong Yin (III))
We realized that we should make us of this opportunity to eliminate our attachments. We decided to stop arguing and recited Lunyu together.
If we did not study the Fa well, few people would want to listen to us, and even fewer would agree to quit the CCP. When this happened, I often thought, “Well, I didn't study the Fa well today, maybe I should stop and continue another time.”
We shared this situation with fellow practitioners and realized that this thought was wrong. If we did not study the Fa well, we could make it up later. But, if we missed the time to contact people and talk to them about Dafa, the opportunity was lost. If we run into a problem, we can recite Lunyu and send forth righteous thoughts.
As long as we encourage each other, are not affected by interference, are not distracted, don't focus on the results only, and just concentrate on what we are supposed to do, we usually achieve better results.