(Minghui.org) Practitioner Aying and I have good rapport when we clarify the truth together. I would usually do the talking and she sent righteous thoughts.
We have cooperated with each other for several years. Practitioner Bing approached me one day and said that she wanted us to come with us and clarify the truth together. Since cooperation adds more energy because of more righteous thoughts, it is a good thing, so I decided to I accept her request.
I did not expect that Bing would not truly cooperate and would disturb the way we clarified the truth. She spoke a lot and would often talk to Aying about matters unrelated to truth clarification. She would chat as she walked. A few times after I clarified the truth and persuaded people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), I discovered that neither of them had sent forth righteous thoughts for me. I was upset and thought to myself, “You do not reach out to talk to people, so you should send forth righteous thoughts for me. Master has extended the time for us to save people, so we must cherish it! Why aren’t you serious about clarifying the truth?” I could not accept Bing’s behavior and was unhappy, but I didn’t say anything to her.
We continued to go out together to clarify the truth every day. I gradually realized that this situation wasn’t right. We should cooperate, elevate in our cultivation, and improve as one body. The three of us are one body. When fellow practitioners have shortcomings that need to be addressed, I should increase my capacity. Cultivation is such a serious matter, I must not let the old forces take advantage of any loopholes. I thus suppressed my dissatisfaction with Bing and thought that she might change in the future.
Before this conflict could be resolved, things escalated. Two other practitioners approached us and asked to join our group when we went out to clarify the truth. I thought that a group of five people was too big a target, so we decided to divide into two groups. Bing said that she was used to Aying so she and Aying went together and I went with the two other practitioners. I did not say anything but I was upset again. I thought, “You’ve only been doing this for a few days while Aying and I have been working together for so many years.” I was upset. I knew that I should not fight with her, but I did not feel good. I had to suppress my emotions as I talked to people about Dafa, so things did not turn out as well as in the past. I said quite a lot, but not many people agreed to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations. I knew that this disturbance was affecting me.
This was not going to work. I know I should let go of my ego. I should not argue about who was right or who was wrong. Why did Bing want to be partners with Aying? Were there any attachments that I should get rid of with regard to this?
Master said,
“As a cultivatorOne always looks for one’s own faults‘Tis the Way to get rid of attachments most effectivelyThere’s no way to skip ordeals, big or small(During a conflict, if you can remember;)“He’s right,And I’m wrong,”What’s to dispute?”(“Who’s Right, Who’s Wrong,” Hong Yin III)
The answer is always in the Fa. I gradually calmed down. “Why am I happy when others listen to me, and why do I get angry when the practitioners do not follow my lead? On the surface, I am the main actor when we clarify the truth, so they should cooperate with me. In actual fact, I place myself really high above them. This is my attachment. It is sacred only when I do things without attachments.”
Having found this attachment, I felt like I had just opened a door and my heart felt light. When I find fault with others, the more I find, the angrier I get. When I search within myself, the more I search, the lighter my heart feels. Looking within is really good! The more I searched within myself, the happier I got.
After that, I asked Aying to follow me, leaving Bing with no chance to say anything else. I asked Bing to learn how to clarify the truth. I walked in front and clarified the truth first. When I could not continue, Aying would add to what I’d said. I did not ask for anything from others, and, most importantly I did not put myself in a higher position. Every practitioner has his or her own merits, so I should focus on their strengths. Our group dynamic started to change.
I clarified the truth to a lady in a supermarket. The lady pushed my suggestion aside and did not want to hear what I had to say. She was also not willing to quit the CCP. By then she was near Bing, who told that lady from a third person’s perspective, “What that person [meaning me] told you is for your own good. If you quit the CCP organizations, you will not have to face disasters. You can use this pseudonym to quit.” That lady smiled and nodded in agreement.
Another time at the supermarket, I was clarifying the truth to a young man and a young lady. The man listened and understood what I was saying, but he was in a hurry to leave. Aying then told them that people who have beliefs are good people. She said, “I have a belief, and I know that somewhere out there, there are gods protecting us. The CCP promotes atheism. Only by quitting the CCP organizations that you have joined will you be able to stay far away from disasters. Life itself is a form of wealth. Who doesn’t want the gods to protect them?” The man and lady agreed to quit.
Through looking within this time, I found my attachment and was determined to get rid of it, Master has already helped me get rid of the bad matter. In addition, my fellow practitioners improved when I changed. Only when a living being conforms to the Fa will that being be able to feel the display of the Fa. Only through solid cultivation can we assimilate to the Fa and can the Fa be reflected through you.