(Minghui.org) I went on a hike with my family during Mid-Autumn Festival. When we came home, there was a large blister on my left instep, and the flesh surrounding it was red and swollen. My wife, who is a doctor, contacted a colleague who works in her hospital. The colleague said that I was suffering from diabetes complications and I should immediately go to the hospital for treatment!
My wife told me that she saw a similar case. She did not want to scare me but said that my left foot would continue to swell, bulge, and ooze pus. It would be extremely itchy and painful, and eventually I would lose all feeling in my foot. She begged me to listen to her and seek treatment. She said she would take a long leave from work and take care of me.
The situation happened so fast! I immediately realized that this “illness” was an illusion created by the old forces. I had not paid attention to my cultivation recently, so some false symptoms of diabetes appeared from time to time. I calmly told my wife that I would be fine in a few days. She stopped insisting on taking me to the hospital.
I knew this illness was caused by my unrighteous mindset. I had symptoms of illness before, but when I looked inward and gained a clear understanding of why it happened, I knew how to deal with it. The illusion of sickness gradually disappeared after a few days.
However, after recovering from the illness, I forgot the insights that I had gained. During the recent holiday break in October, I decided to relax. I watched a martial arts drama that I was obsessed with when I was a child, and later played a popular Internet game. As a result, the night before the holiday ended, I began to experience the false appearance of being sick.
I had a dream that night: I ran in a marathon and was almost at the finish line. Even though I ran quickly, I felt relaxed and energetic. Suddenly the scene changed. I ran home and went to the bathroom. When I came out, the result of the race was announced. Someone said they felt sorry for me because it looked like I was in first place, but left the race!
When I woke up I felt ashamed and apologized to Master: “Master, I know I was wrong. I will practice diligently and not slack off again!” That night I experienced unforgettable itching and pain! After I rectified myself, the illusion of sickness gradually disappeared.
From these experiences I deeply realized the seriousness of cultivation. When a practitioner slacks off, it can cause terrible trouble! My dream showed me that I could not break free of my attachments, such as those to my ego. After overcoming this ordeal, I began to deeply look inward.
I am always grateful for Master’s grace and great compassion! The old forces don’t want practitioners to reach the finish line of cultivation! They use every little loophole to test practitioners.
I now clearly see the destination ahead. I have two issues: one is that I can’t seem to completely let go of my attachments; the other is how to clarify the truth thoroughly so that people can be saved as soon as possible.
The long night is almost over and dawn is fast approaching. People are eager to be saved! We should take action and cherish every moment!
This is my recent experience and insight. Please kindly point out where I can do better.