(Minghui.org) I recently began practicing Falun Dafa and I am deeply aware of how profound Zhuan Falun is. Yet I couldn’t always enlighten to higher principles from just reading the Fa. After reading the cultivation experiences of practitioners who said they memorize and hand-copy the book, I was inspired to do this.

I am slow at hand-copying and memorizing the Fa at the same time. Although it takes me days to memorize just one paragraph, I am determined. I also know this is a cultivation process.

Right now, I am copying Lecture Three. When I look at the two lectures I already copied, the handwriting looks messy and sloppy, even though I thought I was focusing. I reminded myself to calm down and slow down. My purpose is not to pursue speed but to learn the Fa well.

Master taught us,

“Whenever he improved his level, he looked back and realized that the Dharma he had just taught was all wrong.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)

Master said that the Fa is different at different levels and I saw that my understanding of the Fa changed while hand-copied the text.

While copying the following paragraph, I suddenly realized a big attachment I had about my husband.

“You may have cured someone’s illness, but he may not have appreciated it. When you were treating him, even though you removed so many bad things from him and healed him to a certain extent, there might not have been obvious changes at the time. Yet he was not satisfied and was not grateful to you at all. Instead, he may even have berated you or accused you of cheating him! Dealing with these problems allows one’s heart to be tempered in this environment.” (Lecture Three, Zhuan Falun)

When my husband and I were dating, he said that he had been married before and had a child. It was a big blow to me at the time. Why did he lie to me? I didn’t want to be a stepmother. What upset me most was that the child is often rude to me.

Because my husband was kind to me and loved me, I married him even though he hadn’t been honest. His child stayed with us almost every weekend and I cared for him. He was rude and took for granted everything I did for him. This is my house, but it felt like the child was trying to force me out. I was miserable, but didn’t complain to my husband.

After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I wondered why I had such a marriage. Another practitioner once said, “What Master arranges is the best, but it might not be the most comfortable.” I thought perhaps I owed a debt in the past and now I was repaying it.

When I was copying the Fa teachings, I suddenly understood that although I have the financial means to have my own house and car, I am not here to live a comfortable life but to validate the Fa.

Like people who did reverse cultivation, the energy they had didn’t come from their own cultivation. It was granted to them so they could cultivate, not for them to make a fortune.

When the child is rude and ungrateful, he creates an environment for me to elevate and improve my xinxing. When I realized the reality of the situation, I felt relieved, and tears welled up in my eyes. Master’s arrangements are the best, and they all help me improve my xinxing.