(Minghui.org) I am 57 years old, and started practicing Falun Dafa in 1996. Although I obtained the Fa earlier, I gradually stopped cultivating, because I was busy with work and family life. In 2020, with the help of other practitioners, I returned to Dafa. I was determined to practice diligently and keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification.
I often felt that there was a gap between myself and other practitioners, as I was lacking in Fa-study. I resigned from my job at the end of 2022, and seized the time to study the Fa, and read all of Master’s lectures. I was attracted to the profound Fa principles, and couldn’t put the books down. I thought how lucky and happy I am to have obtained such a precious Fa, with its secrets not to be known by ordinary people.
In order to eliminate the poison of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture, I studied the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, Talking about Party Culture, and The Ultimate Goal of Communism. With this, and through continuous Fa study, I felt that I became more peaceful and the capacity of my mind was constantly expanding.
My husband had neglected the family and wasted money on his bad habits, so I had to rely on myself to support the family and raise the children. I had much resentment toward him. But as a cultivator, when encountering conflicts, I knew I must look inward and get rid of my bad thoughts, so as not to be bound by ordinary people’s reasoning and concepts. Therefore, I no longer got entangled with what happened with my husband, and just cultivated my heart, treating him with compassion, caring for him, and treating him sincerely, so that he could feel the beauty of Dafa.
Even so, the process was not smooth. I once found out that he had borrowed tens of thousands of yuan to squander on his bad habits. I got angry and actually had a physical fight with him. All kinds of thoughts flooded my mind: resentment, wanting to fight with him, and an imbalanced heart. I sat down and realized: “How can I be like this as a cultivator? Isn’t this a trap set by the old forces?” I sat down and sent righteous thoughts, clearing away my bad thoughts, disintegrating the interference from the old forces, and rectifying my every thought.
Under Master’s compassionate care, I gradually got rid of my attachment of resentment, my combative mentality, and attachment to personal interests. Master said,
“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
We must continue to cultivate and get rid of all kinds of attachments in order to improve ourselves. As I continued to look inward, my husband gradually changed and became caring about the family, considerate of others, and saw the beauty of Dafa.
I was studying the Fa in early 2023, when I suddenly had a sore throat, and started coughing. It seemed to get worse over the next several days. I coughed up a lot of phlegm every day. I realized this was sickness karma, but I didn’t worry about it and continued to do what I had to do.
Although I coughed non-stop every day, I didn’t feel uncomfortable. On the contrary, I felt that Master was cleansing my body. Through coughing, I was clearing out the garbage and waste in my body and eliminating karma. At the same time, it was also a test of whether my mind was firm in the face of tribulations. I thought that I am a cultivator, and I wanted to be a true disciple of Master. No matter how big the tribulation, I would definitely get through it.
But my family couldn’t understand and insisted that I take medicine. After hearing that I was coughing, my children, who worked in other places, called me every day to urge me to go to a hospital, and even mailed me a lot of medicine. I said I was fine, “I am a cultivator, and I am not sick.” But my family, who were not practitioners, were educated by the CCP’s atheism and couldn’t understand me, so they had a big argument with me. I thought I must let them know the extraordinary nature of Dafa to prove the beauty and greatness of Dafa. I strengthened my righteous thoughts, increased the time I did the exercises, and persisted in studying the Fa. With Master’s compassionate care, the coughing disappeared within a few days. My family was surprised to see that I got better so quickly.
Through this incident, I felt the importance of clarifying the truth to my family. When I saw my children again, I helped them understand that Falun Dafa is a righteous Fa, and the CCP is committing bad deeds by persecuting Dafa. I told them that only by believing in the goodness of Dafa can we have a bright future.
I am grateful for Master’s compassionate care. Master has never given up on me, a practitioner who has failed to live up to his expectations, and has always been watching over and enlightening me. In the final moments of Fa-rectification, I must work hard to cultivate, do the three things well, and return home with Master.
Due to my limited cultivation level, if there is anything not in line with the Fa, please kindly point it out to me.