(Minghui.org) On Friday October 4th, we needed to go online to download Minghui Weekly, but I couldn’t access the Internet. I repeatedly tried but failed. I sent righteous thoughts to clear away the negative factors in other dimensions, but it didn’t work. I felt there was a reason I encountered this situation—perhaps I needed to improve my xinxing. What should I do? I’m impatient, so I reminded myself to calm down.
My husband, who is also a practitioner, was trying to make the Internet connection for me. I sat cross-legged and conjoined hands, and thought about clearing away the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture factors in me. A practitioner once said that I had a cunning heart.
I examined myself, but didn’t find it—I also refused to admit that I might have issues. Why did I think of this now? I sent righteous thoughts to clear away my cunning heart. After five minutes, I was able to connect to the Internet. I clicked on the icon, and it immediately opened. I was able to download Minghui Weekly and other publications. I experienced the miracle of looking inward!
Around October 7, I tried to post the list of people who withdrew from the CCP, but I wasn’t able to access the Internet. I tried several times that day, but I still couldn’t get online. I sent righteous thoughts like I did last time, but this time it didn’t work.
I thought: “Looking within is not just acknowledging that one has attachments, but we should truly correct them—otherwise we aren’t cultivating.” At that time I was reading an article I previously downloaded on my computer, but my posture was slumped. As soon as I had this thought, I sat upright and looked within at the same time.
I couldn’t delay posting the list of people who did the “Three Withdrawals” because if I had a new list the next day and the pseudonyms were duplicated, it would be difficult to deal with.
I remembered Master said, “They have never been able to block the Minghui website!” (Teachings Given on Lantern Festival Day, 2003) I clicked on the icon, and I was able to access the Internet. I was excited and grateful for Master’s help. I posted the list and downloaded the articles I wanted to read. I only had the thought of looking within myself, but I did not find any attachments. Master once again let me witness the miracle of looking inward!
October 11thth was another Friday. The day before, I told a practitioner, “I sometimes can’t access the Internet so on Friday, you should download Minghui Weekly. If I can’t access the Internet, I’ll go to your home to get it. We can’t delay the other practitioners in our area from accessing the Minghui materials.” She agreed and I was relieved.
By 7:06 a.m. on Friday morning, I tried many times but couldn’t access the Internet. I decided to give up and go to the practitioner’s home to pick it up the materials. I got dressed and was about to turn off the computer when I suddenly thought: If I’m looking for help, will I be to do it next time, or will I have to depend on others?
What was I supposed to enlighten to from tbhe stae of my computer? Did this happen to point out my impatience? Should I get rid of my wish to save face and having to be better than others? A series of thoughts went through my mind as I looked for my attachments. I thought, “I already told myself that I wouldn’t be able to access the Internet. The computer is a being, then shouldn’t it work?”
As soon as I had this thought, I clicked on the icon and instantly connected to the Internet! This time, there were six servers available, and the signal was very strong. I burst into tears. I thanked Master from the bottom of my heart! When there’s a problem, looking within is not just empty talk. If we really look within ourselves and change our mindsets, Falun Dafa’s power is miraculous! Thank you Master!
In the following days, there were times when I couldn’t access the Internet, but I’m no longer impatient. I calmed down and thought about whether my words or deeds were in accordance with the Fa that day. If so, I corrected them. If not, I knew I shouldn’t be attached. Looking within became a habit, and it’s no longer difficult.
In my experience, the ability to access and surf the Internet is also a process of cultivating one’s xinxing, as well as having faith in Master and the Fa. Looking within oneself is not just empty talk, but one must really do it for it to be a true cultivation process. The same problem may not be solved with the same method. We need to constantly correct our thoughts and correct ourselves—then it is true cultivation!
These are my recent cultivation experiences. If anything is not in accordance with the Fa, please correct me.