(Minghui.org) Greetings, esteemed Master and fellow practitioners!
I am a Falun Dafa practitioner from Malaysia. I would like to report my cultivation experiences to Master and share with fellow practitioners.
Beginning Falun Dafa Cultivation
When I was 13 years old, I was introduced to Falun Dafa by my friend and started to cultivate Falun Dafa in my hometown. At that time, I was relatively ignorant, and didn’t quite know how to cultivate solidly, how to look within, and how to get rid of my attachments. I felt that I treated Fa study, doing the Falun Dafa exercises, and sending righteous thoughts as merely duties to accomplish. After that I joined some projects and thought that I was on the road of cultivation because of doing projects.
I was rather young at that time, and curious about many things. I always felt that I was still young, and had the mentality of coming back for cultivation after having had time to play. I didn’t treat myself as a cultivator when I encountered many things and problems. After that, I began to study in college, and because I had no solid foundation of my cultivation, I began to gradually stop cultivating Dafa.
My Life Started Out With Detours
I stayed in a hostel when I was in college. I always went to bed early when I lived in my hometown. After staying in the hostel I stayed up late every day, and started listening to different modern pop music genres. At that time I could never remember the Dafa exercises and Fa study. Besides I did not know that I was driven and controlled by thought karma and attachments. Therefore. for a long time I didn’t do the Dafa exercises and Fa study. I was no different from ordinary people, and I was soaked in a big dye vat full of various emotions and attachments.
After college, I began to work and pursued my life’s goals. I only wanted to make a lot of money so that I could live a comfortable life in the future. I was single at that time, and I always went to the pub with my colleagues to relieve stress. I was enjoying a feasting and pleasure-seeking life. I lived a miserable life, worse than ordinary people. I forgot what I lived for, only knew to work for money, and then spent money on meaningless things. My fellow practitioner friend sometimes reminds me to read Master’s recent articles, but I always did things halfheartedly.
My Life Encountered Major Problems
I met my current wife, got married, and lived a good life. However, last year, my wife began to experience health problems. I was very worried, trying to find a way to cure her body as soon as possible. After many twists and turns, my wife and I decided to go to Taiwan to look for traditional Chinese medicine doctors. One day, we reached a traditional Chinese medicine doctor’s clinic. When I first stepped into the clinic, I saw there was a TV playing the Shen Yun performance program, Dafa materials were placed everywhere, and the article “On Dafa” hung on the wall. The field there made me feel very peaceful and filled with righteous thoughts. I started thinking to myself about whether it is really necessary to come back to cultivation of Dafa, and not to fall again.
Returning to Dafa Cultivation
One day, I told my wife that we should cultivate in Dafa together. After she thought about it, she decided to begin cultivating in Falun Dafa. Unexpectedly, 10 years of time were wasted in this blink of an eye. I also began to understand that these are painstaking arrangements by Master. Master has never given up on me, an unsatisfactory disciple. I was one who didn't even know how to repent. Without Master and Dafa, I am really nothing. Thank you, Master, for your compassionate salvation!
After returning to the cultivation of Dafa, I told myself that I have to practice cultivation truly and solidly, do more and more Fa study, do the exercises, send righteous thoughts, and try my best to follow Master’s Fa-rectification process. Fa study and doing the exercises purified and raised the state of my body and mind, and that beautiful feeling is indescribable. My wife and I went to some practice sites to join group practice, listened to fellow practitioners' experience sharing, and felt that this field with Dafa disciples is very beautiful and peaceful.
Letting Go of Fear
I know that I should not fall behind again, and must closely follow Master’s Fa-rectification process. I had a thought in my mind, “I want to join Dafa projects.” With Master’s arrangement, when I was at the practice site, a fellow practitioner asked me whether I would join the Gan Jing World promotion. I said yes.
I had always been afraid of contacting and talking to strangers, and I was afraid of facing many people. Before I started, I suddenly was filled with fear. I was thinking that it would be better not to join, and I was even so scared that I started to tremble. My wife told me that since I was here, let’s participate. After thinking a while, I decided to join. After arriving at the Gan Jing World booth, the fellow practitioner gave my wife and I a general explanation on how to promote Gan Jing World. At that time, I wasn’t very good at it. The fellow practitioners also told us that we could learn gradually and not to be anxious.
I took the step to let go of my fear, starting from distributing Gan Jing World flyers to people. At the beginning, I encountered a lot of rejection, but many people took the flyer, and slowly my fear began to lessen. I thought to myself that this is actually not as scary as I imagined. As long as I am willing to let go of my fear and do it, Master will strengthen me. Later, some people accepted the flyer and stopped, trying to listen to me. I felt that Master is always beside me to help me, give me wisdom, and I also felt that Master took away a lot of fear substances from my field. While in the process of talking to people, I had a feeling that there was nothing to fear. It made me feel really good when talking without being fearful.
Eliminating Attachments When Participating in Projects
After some time with Master’s arrangement, I joined a self media project from The Epoch Times. This required fellow practitioners and I to carry out interviews on Singapore’s streets. At the beginning, I just went out with fellow practitioners to observe and learn what they were doing. Later, I learned to invite people for interviews. This process allowed me to let go of my fear of being rejected by others and my fear of being disappointed if I failed to invite others. Fellow practitioners also encouraged me to find an opportunity to try to be an interviewer. I didn't have much confidence at that time,
One day, the fellow practitioners and I did a street interview as usual. Suddenly, a fellow practitioner asked me to be the interviewer. I thought to myself that I am not ready yet, and I was also scared, but then I thought about the first time I participated in promoting Gan Jing World, and I did it without having had any experience. Again, I took the step to break through the fear, and took up the position of interviewer. When interviewing, I felt that it was actually not so scary and difficult, there was no major problems during the whole process. It was Master’s compassionate arrangements that let me have the opportunity to eliminate the attachments of fear and the fear of losing face! Thank you fellow practitioners for encouraging me, as well!
While working on the project, I ran into various kinds of tests to cultivate xinxing. Several times when I invited people for interviews, I felt anxious when I had not invited them for a long time, and found that it was to eliminate my impatience after looking within. Sometimes, I wanted to do it and then I didn’t want to do it, and I found that it was to eliminate my attachment to seeking comfort and avoiding hard work. I also tried my best to get rid of my bad thoughts and thought karma. Sometimes I spent some time preparing questions to ask in street interviews, but it was rejected by fellow practitioners, which made me feel angry at that moment. I found that was to eliminate my attachment to resentment.
However, in the process of working on the project, I met some people who encouraged me several times. Once, after finishing an interview with an older lady, I gave The Epoch Times newspaper to her. After she saw the newspaper, she said it was a very good newspaper and she liked it. Fellow practitioners talked to her about Falun Dafa, which resonated with her. Before leaving, she told us that we did well, do not give up and keep trying.
I felt happy that she could understand Dafa, and deeply felt that Master had encouraged me through her mouth to persist with righteous thoughts, to do well for the project, and not to give up! Sometimes when I felt like giving up, my fellow practitioners encouraged me immediately, and I kept going and finally finished my work. From this I realized that I must persist with righteous thoughts, constantly cultivate and eliminate my attachments, and work well with my fellow practitioners. Then I can do well for the projects, getting better and better.
Epilogue
On the cultivation path I still have many attachments to eliminate and cultivate away. I told myself that I must be a true disciple to progress diligently through solid cultivation, save sentient beings, fulfill our historic missions, closely follow Master’s Fa- rectification process, live up to Master’s compassion and boundless grace, and return home with Master.
(Presented at the 2024 Singapore Fa Conference）
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