(Minghui.org) Greetings, compassionate and revered Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I obtained the Fa before 1999. Due to my attachments to fame, personal interest, and sentimentality, I didn’t genuinely start to practice Falun Dafa until 2003. I realized through these years of cultivation that I have a predestined relationship with everyone I meet. Master said that every person in this world is his family member. I sincerely want Master to save every person I interact with, including my coworkers.
As I continued studying the Fa, reading Minghui articles, and exchanging cultivation insights with other practitioners, I identified my attachments—such as following other practitioners when I did things to tell people about Falun Dafa, being competitive, wishing to get the upper hand in everything, having a confrontational mindset, being self-centered, and validating myself. As I gradually let go of my attachments and improved my xinxing, people who seemed hard to approach, finally learned the truth thanks to Master’s compassionate arrangement. I felt happy for them. I experienced Master’s immense compassion, and how he takes care of and enlightens me.
I work at a state-owned enterprise. Xi Wen (alias) was the secretary of the Discipline Inspection Committee. Eight or nine years ago, several police officers showed up to interrogate me. Xi Wen was asked to come to my office with the police. The officers tried to take me away by force. She didn’t say anything. I was strong-minded and competitive at that time. I thought I had strong righteous thoughts and didn’t realize I still had many attachments.
When I later asked Xi Wen why she didn’t say anything when the police officers were kidnapping me, she said, “What could I do?” I said, “You could videotape the whole process.” She looked at me but said nothing. I later went to her office and clarified the truth to her. I also repeatedly asked her to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). She refused. The entire time we worked together, I felt that there was something between us, which separated us. From the bottom of my heart, I wanted to save her. But it seemed very difficult to approach her.
I didn’t see my lack of compassion until several years later. When the police came to arrest me, I realized Xi Wen must have been shocked. She might not know the facts about Falun Dafa—she must have been terrified by the persecution of Falun Dafa practitioners and didn’t know what to do. She just passively did her job. I didn’t comfort her or clarify the truth to her. Instead, I questioned her. So, how could she accept what I said under these circumstances? I felt ashamed and realized that to some extent my behavior blocked her from being saved. I previously thought about clarifying the truth to her but couldn’t find a way to make a breakthrough. Master saw my heart and arranged an opportunity for me to talk to her.
I wanted to clarify the truth to Xi Wen before the Chinese New Year, but didn’t know how to open her heart. I decided to apologize to her for my previous attitude towards her. She was very busy. Before the Chinese New Year holiday, I wanted to give a her a USB drive with the film “Once We Were Divine,” so she could watch it during the holiday. I reminded myself that she also came for the Fa, so I hoped she could understand the film and be saved.
I went to her office one day and apologized to her sincerely. I said, “I haven’t done well in many aspects, and I hope this hasn’t affected you. I really cherish our pre-destined relationship and I hope you learn about Falun Dafa. Humans are very precious and didn’t evolve from monkeys. I’d like to give you a film, ‘Once We Were Divine.’ I hope you will watch it.” I offered her the USB. She didn’t take it—instead she turned to look at her computer. She said, “I have urgent things to do.” I said, “Okay, this is a very good film. If you like it, you can keep it after you watch it. If you don’t want it, you can give it back to me.” I put the USB drive on her desk and left. She was still looking at her computer screen when I walked out.
I saw her in the office building after we came back from the holiday, and I noticed that her expression had changed. When I greeted her, her face looked bright. I felt there was hope for her.
One day I went to see a coworker in another department, but she wasn’t there. I heard some noise and when I stepped out to see if she’d returned, I saw Xi Wen looking through a small crack of her office door. Her eyes caught my eyes. She smiled and said, “I heard something in here.” I realized that her knowing side was looking for me. This opportunity was arranged by Master. I went into her office and said directly, “Please withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. We work together because we have a predestined relationship. We are responsible for our own lives.” She nodded and agreed to quit the CCP.
Jia Qi (alias) was in charge of the affairs of the members of the CCP and Communist Youth League members in our enterprise. She was also there when the police tried to take me away. That day, I sat on the ground and didn’t move. The police grabbed my arms and legs and tried to take me away. Jia Qi said, “Please release her. I’ll talk to her.” The police stopped and went outside leaving me, her, and several other colleagues in the room. I stood up. She didn’t know what to say. She hesitated a bit and said to me, “I have something to deal with at home now,” then she left.
I only saw her once in her office. I heard that she was a postgraduate and only recently began working for the enterprise. I didn’t find an opportunity to clarify the truth to her. I sent her some work-related documents online when she requested them.
Although I practiced Falun Dafa for many years, I still had many attachments. I had negative thoughts about the people who were part of the CCP. I refused to get involved in any affairs they organized or to cooperate with them. As I continued cultivating and read more practitioners’ sharing articles, I realized that I was not in the right mindset and I didn’t understand the true nature of this persecution. Many people worked in the Party affairs office, but this was their job. They came to this earth for the Fa. I have a big predestined relationship with them. But I excluded them because they worked for the CCP. How could I possibly save them? They rarely had the chance to learn about Falun Dafa. Instead, I made them lose the opportunity to be saved due to my attachments. I felt regretful to Master and to sentient beings! I had opportunities to interact with them, but I pushed them out. This was not in line with the Fa’s requirements for me.
I reminded myself repeatedly that I must be a good person according to the Fa’s principles wherever I was. I must treat everyone kindly. As I let go of my attachments, I no longer refused to do the work assigned to me by the Party affairs office. I had some contact with Jia Qi then.
After I improved my xinxing, Master arranged an opportunity. One day I saw her on the stair landing as I went downstairs to my office while she was heading upstairs to her office. I said, “I changed my position recently.” She said, “I’ll miss you.” I told her, “We worked really well together and everything has gone smoothly.” She then told me some details about a recent sports game.
I clarified the truth to her in a low voice as our coworkers were walking up and down the stairs. I asked her to quit the CCP. She agreed. She said, “We know nothing about the professional work but get involved in everything. We get everyone involved in political movements. Everyone feels insecure about their future. They aren’t sure if there’s any hope for them.” I thought she’d been in her position for many years and it would be hard to clarify the truth to her. At that moment I realized that my notion prevented me from approaching her earlier.
Our CEO planned to leave the enterprise. Although I worked with him for years, I hadn’t clarified the truth to him. I felt that I shouldn’t miss the opportunity for him to be saved. He was always busy, so I rarely had the chance to see him. Because we worked in a state-run enterprise, everyone felt insecure about their job. I usually clarified the truth to my coworkers in person to lessen the pressure on them.
Our CEO was hot tempered and always swore at people. I often heard him swearing in his office or in the meeting room while I was on the stairway. When I reported on the progress of the work to him one day, he scolded me in front of everyone for no reason. I almost wept. By studying the Fa, I realized he was helping me eliminate my attachments such as saving face and refusing to take criticism. I always avoided him and didn’t talk to him unless it was absolutely necessary.
I thought about clarifying the truth to him for several days and decided that he shouldn’t lose this opportunity to be saved. I sent him a message and asked to see him in his office. He refused me twice by saying that he was busy and didn’t have time. I was a worried that he might soon be transferred and I wouldn’t see him again, since he lived in another city.
One day I came downstairs after work and saw a coworker who told me that he just finished a meeting. I asked him if our CEO was there. He said yes and that the CEO should soon return to his office. I turned around and ran upstairs. I knocked on the CEO’s door and opened it. I said to him directly, “I heard you are going to leave us. I want to see you to thank you in person. Thank you for taking care of me and protecting me.” During his tenure, the police officers had come to my workplace looking for me twice, but he never told me.
I clarified the truth to him and told him about some of my cultivation experiences. I asked Master to strengthen me while I asked the CEO to quit the CCP. He happily agreed. I gave him a USB before I left. He accepted it. He was calm and was a totally different person that day.
I came to understand that Master protects and guides every practitioner all the time, and that the Fa refines every practitioner. My attachments have hindered some people from being saved. I feel guilty and sorry to Master and sentient beings. Going forward, I will cultivate myself better and help Master save more people.
(Selected submission for the 22nd China Fahui on Minghui.org)