(Minghui.org) Due to my selfish and competitive nature, my strong attachment to jealousy has persisted even after becoming a Dafa practitioner. This attachment manifested in every aspect of my life, becoming especially apparent in the last few years. For instance, seeing couples in harmonious relationships would trigger feelings of sadness because of my own situation. Also, I felt uneasy when observing the comfortable lifestyle of my relatives and friends.

Jealousy also interfered with my cultivation. Instead of feeling happy for those fellow practitioners who have made more progress than I had, I felt a sense of loss. When their children did well in cultivation, I felt a tightness in my chest. I even resented peers who were younger, more attractive, or more capable than I was.

This attachment had become so ingrained that I was unable to feel its existence. In previous years, I did the three things with great progress on the surface. However, I did not realize that jealousy was secretly motivating me.

I once thought of the phrase “jealousy of the virtuous and capable.” Master pointed out my attachment of jealousy. From the story about Shen Gongbao in Zhuan Falun I learned that gods look at how high your xinxing can improve, not the outward display of ones abilities. Only by meeting the standards of Dafa can one’s actions truly be effective.

It is a fundamental principle of the universe that the more virtuous, compassionate, and altruistic you are, the more beautiful your life will be. However, letting go of selfishness is one of the hardest thing people can do. This is the thing we must overcome, and Master is leading us out of it step by step In the Fa rectification.

Over the years, I have constantly tried to eliminate this attachment, believing it was finally gone. One day, I felt a surge of resentment when my husband was dining with his family who’d just returned from a trip. I immediately urged myself to look inward and unexpectedly discovered a lingering attachment to jealousy, which was actually the root cause of many conflicts. If not promptly addressed, it can easily go unnoticed and persist.

People in China have long lived under the influence of Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture, often unaware of the complexities of their interpersonal relationships. As the saying goes, “One can never be too careful.” This mindset has led to guarded thoughts and a reluctance to open up to one another. As a result, many people have built a protective wall in their hearts, which naturally fosters internal strife and can create divisions among practitioners, ultimately weakening our collective strength.

Chinese people have a strong attachment to jealousy, which enabled the old forces to cause the evil party to interfere with cultivation and impose tribulations on Dafa practitioners. This attachment is not consistent with the standards of the new universe and must be completely eliminated.

I will change this mindset and constantly remind myself of it. I will become a person who is truly happy for others who have done well. I will extend the time for sending righteous thoughts to clear away the demonic obstacles inside me that interfere with the Fa. I hope I can quickly unite with fellow practitioners to form a powerful whole, so we can validate the Fa and save sentient beings more effectively.