(Minghui.org) I believe I recently overcame a serious ordeal, and I would like to share my experience with fellow Falun Dafa practitioners.
About six months ago, after reading the book The Ultimate Goal of Communism and The Mythical Stories of Future Man, I went to bed after sending forth righteous thoughts to purify my mind at midnight. I noticed a slight soreness in my throat at that time.
The next day, when I returned home in the evening, I felt uncomfortably warm. After a quick shower, I had no appetite at all. Feeling exhausted, I went straight to bed. At midnight, my alarm woke me for sending forth righteous thoughts. I fell back to sleep before finishing, until my alarm rang again at 3:10 a.m. By then, my whole body was in pain—even my bones ached. Despite the discomfort, I forced myself to complete the five sets of Falun Dafa exercises. However, I couldn't even remember when or how I lay back down again.
The next morning, my 6 a.m. alarm woke me up. After sending forth righteous thoughts, I felt extremely uncomfortable—suffering from a severe headache, body numbness, chest tightness, and persistent sweating. I also started coughing and felt too weak to open my eyes. However, my mind remained clear and I knew I couldn’t let these symptoms prevent me from doing what I was supposed to do.
Over the next few days, my condition worsened. I barely ate or drank, yet I continued to sweat profusely. A week later, the symptoms eased slightly, but the coughing persisted. I was surprised by how much phlegm I was expelling, but I took it as a sign that my body was being purified.
During this period, I continued with my daily routines without delay. However, I occasionally felt on the verge of collapse, and negative emotions surfaced—grievance, resentment, loneliness, and low self-esteem. It was then that I realized something must be wrong with my cultivation.
I increased my Fa study time and looked inward to identify and eliminate attachments. I worked on rectifying myself. Some days, I felt better, but on others, my condition seemed worse.
One day, while riding my electric bicycle, a panicked tricycle driver crashed into me at an intersection. I turned my bicycle away in time and narrowly avoided severe injury.
When I got home, I realized that if not for Master’s protection, the consequences could have been severe. I began reflecting on the entire process of my ordeal. At first, the illness-like symptoms were intense. In less than ten days, I lost 15 pounds, and my body temperature dropped to 35.4°C (95.7°F). I believe the reason I made it through was that I never considered myself ill. I kept doing what I was supposed to do and cultivated even more diligently. As a result, the symptoms subsided. However, afterward, no matter how I rectified myself, negative thoughts kept surfacing, and I constantly felt weak—until the accident happened. That was when I realized that forces in another space may have been exploiting my attachments, attempting to use my karmic debts to take my life.
But what attachment was I still harboring? I felt aggrieved, but in that moment, I immediately realized that this grievance was precisely what I needed to eliminate. I asked myself: “If everything I do is truly for my own cultivation, why do I feel upset when my hard work goes unrecognized or unappreciated?” With this realization, I rectified myself immediately.
This experience taught me that when we fall down in cultivation, we should get back up. As long as the Fa-rectification is not over, we always have the opportunity to correct ourselves. I bow in gratitude to our compassionate and great Master Li Hongzhi.
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