(Minghui.org) My husband and I attended a lunch gathering with his colleagues. I sent forth righteous thoughts before we left and hoped that those present could learn about Falun Dafa and the persecution. I wanted to maintain righteous thoughts.
We talked about family matters while having lunch. One colleague said her father was difficult to take care of. Her complaint was like a bomb and triggered my deep-seated resentment towards my father-in-law. My husband (a non-practitioner) and I talked about how hard it was to care for my father-in-law.
I felt dizzy and nauseous as I spoke, and was about to faint. But I didn’t want to faint since it would damage the image of Dafa practitioners, so I steadied myself and slowly walked to the restroom.
I held onto a post next to the restroom to avoid fainting, and I began vomiting. I asked Master quietly, “I’m wrong. Please help me.” I asked for help many times but didn’t feel better, so I thought the old forces were interfering with me. Thus, I sent forth righteous thoughts, “Eliminate the old forces’ interference. Even if I’m wrong, the old forces cannot control me, and I will rectify myself within the Fa.”
But I continued vomiting. I realized I should search inward and look for my mistake. I recalled what happened during lunch. I was supposed to clarify the truth to people, but not only did I not do it, I said things that a practitioner shouldn’t. I shouldn’t have looked at my father-in-law with human notions and speak ill of him.
The old forces saw my resentment towards my father-in-law and that I wasn’t cultivating my speech. Therefore, they made me suffer and attempted to drag me down. Although I asked Master for help, Master couldn’t help me since the old forces seized my loophole and had an excuse to interfere with me.
A cultivator should look at things with righteous thoughts. When someone complained about her father, I should have searched inward to see if I had similar issues. I discovered I was resentful, failed to cultivate my speech, and was attached to my reputation.
I said quietly, “Master, I admit I’m wrong. I want to get rid of my resentment, and I want to cultivate my speech.” I then sensed that the bad substance was removed. I stopped vomiting, no longer felt dizzy, and I was fine.
This is my current understanding. Please kindly correct me if anything I’ve written is not in line with the Fa.
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