(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1994. I was young at that time. My parents told me that Falun Dafa (also known as Falun Gong) was very good, many people had learned it, and their families had become harmonious. They asked me if I wanted to learn. I was very interested and agreed. I signed up for the nine-day lectures in Jinan City. I now recall this as a great honor.

The lectures were held at the Huangting Arena. I still remember the situation. I felt that the arena was so big. I was lucky enough to sit on the floor in the middle of the arena at the time. I now know what an honor that was! When Master entered, the attendees gave warm applause. Master smiled and waved to the students. The first time I saw Master, I had a sacred feeling: Ah, that’s wonderful! The venue then became quiet in a moment. I felt that Master’s voice was very kind, and then I heard Master talk about prehistoric culture.

Although I was young at the time, I felt that prehistoric culture was real, so I was very interested. I listened to Master’s lectures carefully. I felt that the lecture was so short. In fact, Master had been talking for almost an hour and a half, but it felt like five minutes.

For the next few days, Master entered the venue early to answer questions for students and then he began to give lectures. I thought that the teacher knew everything.

During the last two classes, I did something wrong. I felt that the exercises were very good, so I brought a good friend to the lecture. To save money, I played a trick and asked him to sneak in the front door with my attendance pass. I took an expired student pass and went in through the back door. When I stepped in through the small door, I heard Master’s thunderous voice: “Some student even lets another person take his attendance card to enter through the front door, and he used his expired student pass to enter through the back door. We teach you to be good people, but you deceive our staff.”

I felt as if I had been sternly warned. I was stunned! I thought: Wasn’t that me! I was wrong! I felt really embarrassed. Master also said very seriously, so that even if this kind of student came in, he would not get anything. I still remember it vividly.

During the series of classes, I got answers to many questions that I hadn’t understood before. From Master’s teachings, I also knew that I had finally found the way to immortality that I had been looking for since I was a child.

Toward the end of the lectures, Master asked everyone to write a reflection about what they had learned and said that he would read every single one without exception. Although I didn’t have much experience, I thought I must listen to the teacher, so I wrote a page and told Master that I understood everything. I knew that the road of cultivation must be very hard. I didn’t know if I could persevere to the end, so I wrote a sentence at the end, “I know how to conduct myself as a practitioner.” I made up my mind that no matter how hard it was, I must reach the goal of cultivation.

Now that I recall it, it’s really like what Master said:

“I think that those who can listen to my lectures in person, I would say, honestly... you will realize in the future that this period of time is extremely precious.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)

After this class, I returned to being among ordinary people. Although I thought that I was a practitioner, my mentality did not improve much; When I encountered problems I could not pass the tests.

After graduating from college in 1995, I found a group practice site in my hometown. I followed other practitioners to introduce Dafa. I also participated in meetings, nine-day classes to play videos of Master’s lectures, and large-scale group activities. During this period, I felt that my mentality had not improved much, but fortunately, there was an environment for group Fa study. If there had been no group Fa study and practice where everyone could encourage each other, many people would have fallen behind.

In this way, until July 20, 1999, the new teachings by Master, as well as the videos of Master’s lectures overseas, were quickly transmitted to us. I was very lucky to be able to obtain and see them quickly. At that time, Falun Dafa spread very quickly. We organized a group practice activity with thousands of people in my hometown.

On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched the persecution of Dafa. Many practice sites and study groups did not dare to continue. Our group was also suspended. After the persecution began, I thought that I shouldn’t go to prison; what if I couldn’t hold on facing torture and did something wrong in prison? I knew I must not do anything that betrayed Master and Dafa, and I would definitely continue to practice. One day, Master would come back, and I would definitely wait until that day.

When my workplace later asked me to write a guarantee statement to give up cultivation, I wrote that I would not participate in a cult or participate in any cult activities. After that, the workplace never harassed me again. I later realized that this was not right, so I wrote a solemn statement, stating that this guarantee letter was invalid and that I would not give up my practice.

After losing my cultivation environment, I slacked off with my Fa-study and practice. I was almost in a state of detachment from cultivation. I did not do the exercises or study the Fa for a long time. I wanted to improve, but I wasn’t diligent. I was like an ordinary person, drinking, and making lustful mistakes. Fortunately, Master did not give up on me. I was able to obtain all the of Master’s new lectures and was able to get in touch with Dafa disciples.

I had been working since 1996 and wanted to join the Communist Party. I finally had the opportunity to join the Party at the end of 2004. When I heard that my application was approved, a fellow practitioner said to me: “Why do you want to join it? The CCP is persecuting us now. We shouldn’t join it.”

After he left, I also considered this question: to join or not to join? In the end, I made up my mind not to join. At the beginning of 2005, Minghui.org published the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, and the tide of withdrawing from the CCP and its affiliated organizations began. I was glad that I didn’t join the party at that time; otherwise, I would have had to quit.

I later left my hometown to live in another city. I wanted to connect with local practitioners. Maybe Master saw my heart, so he helped me find a fellow practitioner, who has been printing and distributing truth-clarifying materials in this town all these years.

After we got in touch, I learned the how to install NTDTV satellite receivers. Since then, I have watched Shen Yun every year. I learned from her how to prepare truth-clarification materials, install computer systems, and so on.

Although I cooperated with other practitioners to clarify the truth, I was unable to keep up with my Fa study and practice over the years. I was not diligent on the path of cultivation. I often hung out with ordinary friends and also often drank some beer. Right before the 2024 Chinese New Year, I made up my mind to start practicing well; no matter what, I resolutely wouldn’t drink beer or wine anymore. Since then, I have not touched alcohol again.

Under Master’s arrangement, I participated in a Fa study group. Since around October last year, with the encouragement of another practitioner, we began to memorize the Fa. We broke through our initial fear of difficulties. Now we are memorizing the subsection “Improving Xinxing” in the fourth lecture. Perhaps because of memorizing the Fa, I have recently felt that my attachment to lust has become much smaller, to the point where I can control it. When doing the exercises, I can also feel that I am able to reach tranquility. I think this should have something to do with memorizing the Fa. I should have started earlier.

In my cultivation practice, my character and mindset haven’t improved much. Some stubborn ideas have been hard to overcome, and I find it difficult to let go of various personal attachments. There have also been issues with my temperament. Over the past two years, I haven’t gotten along well with some colleagues and neighbors. Even during conflicts, I’ve been unwilling to change myself, which has only made the conflicts worse. Due to fear or avoidance, I was transferred to working in a position that I’m not very satisfied with. I encountered a major setback in my work which has left my mind unsettled for some time.

Other practitioners communicated with me at the Fa study group. With their help, I found a lot of problems of mine, such as jealousy, the competitive mentality, pride, resentment, grievance, showing off, and pursuing fame and fortune. I looked inward and found that it was time for these attachments to go completely.

During this time, I read How the Specter of Communism Is Ruling Our World and listened to Disintegrating the Culture of the Chinese Communist Party. I asked myself: What is the difference between me and the CCP? The communist evil spirit is composed of hatred and degenerate matter from lower levels. My competitive, combative mentality comes from hatred and from a sense of grievance—being eager for recognition and achievements, liking to argue and talk back, being prone to confrontation and sharp exchanges. When I gain the upper hand, I feel smug; when things go my way, I’m happy; when they don’t, I’m unhappy. In what way am I any different from an ordinary person?

I really should discard these attachments. When I encountered these things, I happened to be memorizing the fourth lecture of Zhuan Falun. I thought a lot.

I thought that when others treat me badly and lose their temper, they are helping me eliminate karma. If I could think of these things when I had conflicts with others, would I act like the other party? Would I be angry with him? Could I thank him from the bottom of my heart? I really have to thank him! Master asked us to be genuine practitioners. Over these years, I’ve fallen far behind and have done very poorly, wasting a great deal of time.

Compassionate, great Master did not give up on me. He has always taken care of me. I have been protected by Master along the way. Although I was not doing well, he still let me return to cultivation. Master is really magnificent! I want to catch up, do the three things well, and return with Master! Thank you, Master!

After the notice calling for papers for this Fahui was issued, I thought that about how at the end of each lecture Master had asked new students to write a reflection. Master said that he would read every article. So I thought that I must do what Master said, even if I can’t do it well.

After writing this reflection, I felt that I had reviewed my journey from attaining the Fa to the present. I felt that I had been in the Fa all the way, and everything was arranged by Master. Master has been watching over me all the way.

We cannot betray Master’s compassion and suffering. The living beings in heaven are waiting for us, countless beings are looking forward to being saved, and our vows must be fulfilled!

Please correct me if I said anything that is not in line with the Fa. Heshi.