(Minghui.org) I’m nearly 80 years old, and I’ve practiced Falun Dafa for 26 years. Before taking up cultivation I smoked, drank, and played mahjong. After I began to practice, I stopped all my bad habits and immersed myself in Dafa along with fellow practitioners. During the Fa-rectification period, I joined others in doing the three things.
I live alone and a nephew bought me a smartphone, saying that with such a phone, he could see me on the screen whenever he missed me.
When I opened the phone, a TV drama appeared on the screen and I watched it with great interest—even while I ate or went to the bathroom. This continued until I fell asleep. I picked up my phone and watched videos as soon as I came home from clarifying the truth about the persecution to people with fellow practitioners.
Sometimes, bizarre fantasy movies popped up, and I watched them. It felt like I was possessed and I was unable to control myself. I would become angry when I saw videos with people having extramarital affairs. The lust demon was poisoning me in my dimensional field, but I did not realize it—I even watched some obscene videos.
One day, while I was watching videos on my phone, I heard a very loud “hmph,” which startled me. I dropped my phone and ran into another room. In my heart, I knew Master was warning me. However, since my main consciousness was not strong and my thoughts weren’t righteous, I continued watching videos on my phone.
As I slacked off in cultivation and became addicted to my cellphone, I felt muddle-headed all day. I could not focus when I read the Fa teachings. I felt sleepy as soon as I started to read, my hand slumped when I sent forth righteous thoughts, and I wasn’t even clear what thoughts I was sending forth. I also fell asleep when I meditated.
The other practitioners were memorizing Zhuan Falun, and reminded me to do so as well, but I couldn’t even recite On Dafa. I continued to go out every day to clarify the truth with other practitioners, however, I wasn’t very successful at helping people quit the CCP. Others thought I was doing quite well, but they did not know that I’d been addicted to my cellphone for over a year. I didn’t tell them—I forgot that we are an inseparable one body, and I was already far behind.
My Wake-up Call
One day in mid-November, I went out again as usual, but felt very cold on my way back. I went to bed as soon as I got home and I fell asleep. When I woke up, all I could see was a white haze. Just then, my granddaughter called me, and it took me a while to find my phone. I told her I had difficulty seeing.
She became concerned and told her dad. My son called and said, “Mom, let’s go to the hospital.”
He was still recovering from an illness, and I didn’t want him to become too stressed. However, my headache became increasingly severe, and reached the point that it was almost unbearable. My children took me to the hospital, where I had surgery for cataracts and glaucoma.
Fellow practitioners came to my house when they became concerned about not seeing me for three days, and only then did they know that I stumbled badly in cultivation because I allowed myself to be carried away by my addiction to my phone.
After I returned home from the hospital, local practitioners came to see me and we talked. They also sent forth righteous thoughts to help clean up those bad elements in my dimensional field.
I became clear-headed and realized where I had fallen behind. Due to my poor understanding of the Fa principles, I didn’t truly respect Master and the Fa, and I failed to hold myself to the standard of a true Dafa practitioner. As a result, the old forces took advantage of my loopholes.
Our compassionate Master didn’t give up on me and arranged for fellow practitioners to help me and share with me on the Fa. I realized many attachments that I hadn’t seen before, such as an inflated ego, arrogance, strong self-interest, emotional bias, vanity, and an excessive need for self-protection.
My husband passed away when I was young. After my children married, I lived alone. I was the central figure in our family, and the children always listened to me. I thought highly of myself and demanded respect. It was only through this big tribulation that I realized I still had so many dirty attachments.
From the bottom of my my heart, I sincerely repent before Master: All that I have said or thought in the past when I was muddle-headed that did not in align with the Fa principles is now completely nullified! I am determined to follow Master and walk well on the remaining path of Fa-rectification.
I am writing this to remind fellow practitioners who may have become addicted to cellphones and the internet. Please stay away from this harmful and treacherous den. Let’s rectify ourselves by the Fa principles, truly cultivate ourselves well, so as to save more people and return to our true home with Master!
Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!
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