(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa around 2005, and I’m now in my 70s. Why don’t I remember the exact date of such a significant event? My mind was not clear back then because my family was facing many tribulations, and we were all suffering greatly.
The Miserable Part of My Life
Our family used to be happy. My wife was capable and hard-working. She got up early every day to prepare tofu and sold it from a cart—this supported our family. We lived well, but we were not wealthy.
We had a daughter and two sons. They were attractive and well-behaved, especially our younger son, who was chubby, smart, and liked by everyone.
About 30 years ago my wife developed mental health problems. Our children were still in school at the time, and the youngest was only a few years old. My family quickly fell apart. My wife’s condition was manageable at first, with good days followed by difficult ones. She could do some housework and care for the children when her mind was clear. She eventually had a total breakdown and became unaware of her surroundings. She urinated and defecated on the furniture. She also ran away, so instead of making tofu I had to search for her.
My older son developed a psychiatric disorder when he was in middle school. When my younger son reached adulthood he got a job. He had a fight with some people and became agitated, and afterwards also developed a mental illness.
My once happy family suddenly turned into a nightmare. Only my daughter and I were mentally stable. The others were unaware of almost everything. They urinated and defecated everywhere. I couldn’t keep up with cleaning after them. They also often went missing. All of this made it extremely difficult to maintain my tofu business.
My daughter had her own family and children and couldn’t help. My life was miserable. I felt exhausted, both physically and mentally, and I lost all hope. I asked the heavens when my misery would end, and I became extremely agitated. I often beat my wife and children, wondering what sins I committed in a past lifetime to deserve such a family.
My neighbor suggested that I consult a witch. He told me to make offerings to a group of foxes and weasels, which I did, but it had no effect.
My younger son’s illness was relatively mild. At first, he was just depressed. He might have recovered had he received proper treatment. However, I had no idea what to do. He was in a psychiatric hospital for about eight years. After he was discharged, he tried to kill himself three times. He took a large number of sleeping pills and suppressants after his last attempt, and lost consciousness. He was just over 30 years old.
Prolonged fatigue and anxiety affected my health. I had shoulder pain, hemorrhoids, insomnia, and was depressed. I often stayed awake all night, and I felt dazed during the day. I pushed my cart with a dull mind and wandered around, not knowing how long I could keep going.
Master Displayed Wonders After I Begin Practicing Falun Dafa
The most difficult time of my life led to a turning point, and hope. A woman I sold tufu to told me about Dafa. She asked me to recite “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” which I did whenever I had time.
The fox and weasel spirits I previously made offerings to could not bear it. They tried to stop me by causing the ceiling to make noises, and clanging dishes and chopsticks. I didn’t understand what was happening and I was a bit scared. I persisted in reciting “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I could feel the bad things leaving me, and my mind became clear. Seeing how effective those few words were, I decided to practice Dafa.
I found the lady who told me to recite the two phrases and she gave me a copy of Falun Dafa’s main book Zhuan Falun. She taught me the exercises and explained that a practitioner’s mission was to do the three things well and help Master save people.
I cannot describe how happy I was after I began practicing Falun Dafa. Every day, other than preparing tofu and taking care of my family, I studied the Fa and did the exercises whenever I could. My enlightenment quality was poor; my goal at the time was only to gain something to heal my soul.
All my illnesses disappeared soon after I began practicing Dafa. I could sleep well and my mood was good. I especially liked studying the Fa and practicing the exercises. Although I slept only three hours a night, I didn’t feel tired.
I read the book and did as Master asked. My temper improved, and I stopped hitting my wife and scolding our children. I was patient, and took suffering as joy.
The interference from the animals I previously worshiped worsened after I began cultivating. When asleep I felt suffocated and couldn’t breathe. I woke up in terror. Sometimes I felt a snake crawling into my nostrils, and I could not pull it out no matter how hard I tried. I was terrified and woke up trembling in a cold sweat.
They made the ceiling creak and groan while I meditated. I was frightened, and cried out, “Save me, Master.” All the noises immediately stopped.
I knew the troubles were related to the spirits I previously worshiped. So I threw away all the tablets and replaced them with Master’s picture. I dedicated myself to Dafa and followed Master’s teachings from then on.
I reorganized my life. I placed my wife and children in a special care facility. Besides selling tofu, I took on some side jobs. I was able to cover my basic needs and pay my family’s medical bills. I also had enough time to study the Fa and do the exercises. Because I had Master and was learning the most precious Dafa, my decades of misery finally ended.
Master opened my celestial eye soon after I began practicing Falun Dafa. My experience was similar to what Master described in Zhuan Falun:
“At this time, it will blossom like the flowers seen on television or in a movie in which the flowers blossom in a second. Such scenes will appear. The red color will start out flat, and then it will suddenly stand out in the middle and turn constantly.” (Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)
It was so beautiful and glorious.
I saw many law wheels (Falun) in the sky one day while I was working in the yard. They were quite large, had various colors, rotated in the clouds, and were very beautiful. I saw them many times—sometimes they were large and sometimes they were small. When I was ready to sleep after I did the exercises at night, I saw law wheels flying around and filling the room. They made a humming noise like bees. I was stunned.
Master sometimes guided me through the exercises. Master wore yellow clothing and looked like he was about 18 years old. I sometimes saw a person who looked exactly like me, wearing the same clothing and doing the exercises with me. He had a large law wheel rotating in his abdomen. I didn’t realize it was my primordial spirit until I later read about the phenomenon in Zhuan Falun.
I also saw the Tao school Taiji plate crack open as described in the book:
“Those who practice in the Tao School often see something rotating inside their celestial eye. After the Taiji plate cracks open with a snap, one will see images...” (Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)
I saw a golden dragon jump out of the plate, as thick as a barrel. It flipped and turned in front of me and looked so lively. From studying the Fa, I realized all my suffering and misery were related to the lives I killed and harmed in other lifetimes.
I liked to catch small animals when I was young, and I built metal traps to catch geese, rabbits, and weasels. I skinned the weasels and sold the pelts to support my family. I also killed snakes. I killed countless lives. Because of my ignorance and cruelty, I brought suffering on my family, and we all faced consequences. If Master hadn’t saved me, I don’t know how I would have survived.
I no longer complain and curse. I face each day with joy. With Master’s benevolent protection, I study the Fa and continue to elevate myself.
Helping Master Save Sentient Beings
After the persecution began on July 20, 1999, my cultivation changed from individual cultivation to include telling people about Falun Dafa.
I used my time selling tofu to tell my customers about Dafa. I had no fear. I pushed my cart during the day, told people the facts, and encouraged them to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I explained that Falun Dafa is a Buddha law, and I explained how I benefited from it. I talked about the miraculous deeds that Master performed and how the Chinese Communist Party persecutes practitioners.
I remained calm and composed while informing others of the facts. I wished them a good future if they accepted what I said. I stayed calm even when they disagreed or cursed at me. I thought it might be that I couldn’t break through the shell obstructing them because my cultivation level wasn’t high enough. I knew they were fortunate to hear the truth about Dafa, which laid a foundation for their future.
I also distributed informational materials about Falun Dafa. One night, when another practitioner and I were distributing pamphlets, he noticed a police car parked in front of us. We immediately started sending forth righteous thoughts, and we asked Master to help us, hoping they wouldn’t see us. We distributed all the materials that night without any interruption, and then headed home.
I now have a fixed stand where I sell tofu. Some temporary vendors often stay near my stand to sell their goods. I never tell them to leave. Instead, I share facts about Dafa and urge them to quit the CCP.
An elderly couple often sold their items in front of my stand. They would not listen when I tried many times to tell them facts about Dafa. I still treated them kindly. One day, the elderly lady took my position when I arrived late. When I asked her to give me space, she refused, got angry as we talked, and slapped me. I didn’t get upset because Master asked us to cultivate ourselves no matter what the situation is.
I’ve cultivated for 20 years. I’ve sometimes felt afraid, and my enlightenment quality lagged behind, or I relaxed and slacked off. I was frightened when many local practitioners were arrested or harassed. I hesitated to talk to people. I thought most people recognized me because I sold tofu on the street. I wanted to wait and observe for a while. I was letting my demon nature emerge. I realized these incidents happened because of the human attachments I hadn’t eliminated.
Everything in the World Is Here for the Fa
I found a shivering, injured swallow in my yard that flapped around for a while but couldn’t fly. I placed it on the counter to warm up. I told it the truth about Dafa and asked it to remember “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I released it when it recovered.
I thought that was the last time I would see it. But one day, while I was pushing my tofu cart, I saw it flying toward me. It landed on my head and stroked me with its wings, as if thanking me for saving it.
I was moved by its actions. Indeed, all things in the world came for the Fa. I thought about the innocent lives I had taken, and felt deep regret. I told myself, I will definitely cultivate myself well; I will save the animals I harmed, bringing them into my world as sentient beings if my cultivation succeeds.
I thank Master.
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